Sunday, October 22, 2006
hah.
my emotional rollercoaster is back.
and it blardy hell sucks.
i feel like a fucked up loser.
maybe i ALREADY am a loser.
but it just feels worse now.
a sore loser huh?
i was on the verge of scarring again.
no, i didnt.
cos i know it will go away.
all the fucked up insecurities.
i hate it.
does everyone hate me?do they not wanna be around me?am i a thorn in their flesh?am i that detestable?am i that bad?am i that fake?am i that irritating?am i that bimbotic?am i that bitchy?am i that kinda person?
i hate it when i question myself all that.
it makes me hate myself even more than i already do.
am i psychotic?
am i depressed?
am i crazy?
to be feeling this way.
why am i feeling this way?
~!#$%^&*+@
suddenly
he doesnt matter anymore.
not today.
cos i must learn to love myself before i can "love" someone else.i must not hurt myself anymore.
not physically or mentally.
no more.
i've had enough of it.
ENOUGH!i shall be a happy and bubbly person like i
always am.
michelle > thanks sweetheart. really felt better after crying. =))
martina & nurul > thanks for bothering to listen. =))
stories of my life. 1:12 AM;
