Monday, July 24, 2006
went out with eli just now.
she said i'm happier now.
more bubbly.
less attitude prob.
look more carefree.
yar lar.
so i'm practically so called happier and nicer now.
am i really happier?
things at home's up and down.
sometimes itz normal, sometimes itz just damn screwed.
life in school is ok.
can be fun at times.
friends?
haiz.
maybe i'm fated to be friendless at times when i need them lar huh.
boys/
girls?
i dunno.
a part of me still wants to go ard an lian-ing them.
but a part of me just dont want to.
it's like..
every single guy/
girl i like will nvr look at me lar u noe.
hah.
guess i'm always too ugly compared to the girls.
haiz.
ok. back to the happier and bubblier and less AP part..
yar.
am i really liddat now compared to last time??
i know my temper's gone down by A LOT.
i know i dont really have AP now.
do i really look and sound happier?
gawd.
i guess i'm putting up a front even me myself is unaware of lar.
probly cos i'm too used to it?
haha.
bottomline is.
most ppl put up a front.
they are not who you really think they are.
this entry is just crap lar.
oh yar.
PEOPLE.
i noe you mean well.
thanks.
really appreciated it.
stop nagging at me smoking lar.
like i said.
i only TRIED.
i wont be a smoker.
cos i dont see anything nice about it.
i know my limits.
thanks again.
stories of my life. 1:13 AM;
