Monday, July 17, 2006
what's the point of crying when i know it can never be the answer to what i'm feeling right now?
i dont even noe what i'm feeling now lar.
i know slashing doesnt help much either.
i'm trying not to.
i wont.
for now.
sometimes i wonder if i am being myself.
i dont even noe who i am.
am i the quiet shy girl?
or am i the loud full-of-shit girl?
to some...
they will laugh their guts out if i say i'm shy and quiet.
to some..
they will get shocked when i start talking cock.
so who am i?
am i just putting up a front?
or am i really being myself?
why am i wearing girl clothes when i prefer guys'?
why am i keep my hair long when i hate long hair?
maybe i should just be a butch arh.
but a straight one.
hahaha.
what nonsense lar.
i've given up on liking you a very long time ago.
but i miss you.
will you ever talk to me again like you always did?
i guess not.
you treat me differently now.
but i cant blame you.
i'm sorry for being stupid.
and i thank you for being there for me then.
so i guess it is time i really move on.
liking someone is just so difficult.
especially when i know it's impossible and me being stupid.
really stupid.
stories of my life. 1:14 AM;
